here we go...

so, i don't really know how many times i have said "i'm serious about this"... but i think last night was a giant wake up call. i'm getting married. in a year, if all works out. which means that in about 6 months, i'm going to need to have a wedding dress. which in turn means that i'm going to need to be the size i want to be for my wedding. i was thinking yesterday that i feel like i've lost a little weight, just due to stress and being too busy on some days to eat. if i can keep up a little momentum, and not do anything stupid (like going shopping for pants and being disappointed in how big i am and then getting depressed and gorging myself) i might be able to do this. i'm trying to get kevin to work with me a little bit... that'll help i think. i also looked into the kettlebell workout thing you told me about. i'm going to need to go to target and pick on up. i'm really excited. i hate that i can't tell anyone. i'm so retarded- i just want to change my relationship status on facebook. lol. then i started thinking last night about all the stuff we have to do... holy crap. i'm really overwhelmed. i want you to know, though, that this isn't going to be a "normal" maid of honor job. i think there will be way less to do. ok, i've gotten completely off track and turned this into crazy bridal blog. losing weight- #1 goal. here i go.

first workout in a while

i got new shoes, so i'm back to working out. shoes aren't broken in though, obviously, and now i have a nasty blister on my right achiles after walking 3.4 miles in an hour. i have a good workout playlist with some angry, fast-paced stuff, as well as some feel-good type shit that gets me all hyped up. also, i saved some workout videos in my netflix queue that i can do when it's too disgustingly hot and humid out to walk down to the fitness room. i'm looking into some exercises to do on the weight machines and stability balls to get some variety and keep myself from losing interest in just walking all the time. yep.

back once again...

yo yo yo... starting this thing back up for the long haul. hope you'll be right here with me.

here's what i'm thinking: i don't like how i look in pictures these days. i look completely different than i did before i gained all this weight. i used to think i was pretty... i don't anymore. it's going to be more than a little bit difficult to keep a good diet going, since i'm living with kevin and working in a bakery, i always have access to crap food. so, this is going to be WAY more of an effort to keep myself on a good workout routine. i know that if i use a little will power, i can stay on track cause when i work at it, i work hard.

here we go.

a GOOD DAY

Banana
Breakfast:
Oatmeal

Lunch:
Salad (WF)

---GYM---> 20 Minute 3/5 Interval & 45 Eliptical Interval
Weights: ARMS, Abs
10 Minute Walk Incline & 10 Minute (Arc Machine)


Snack: 15 almonds, 1/2 cup strawberries & kiwi

Dinner:
2 egg whites, 1 egg scrambled
Serving of Broccoli Raab

Snack: Yogurt with Blueberries

GYM: Had to have burned close t0 800-1,000 calories no lie!
Calorie Count:
1520 Calories
Protein: 101g
Carbs 186g
Lipids 44g

Good download for counting calories -- Cron-o-Meter
Just an FYI : )

Getting back into things as well. Working out twice a day even if it kills me!

tag team, back again...

so, here i go again. i'm not trying to diet, really, because i don't find it reasonable with the cost of fresh food and my complete lack of cash flow. if i do start dieting, it won't be by choice, but because i ran out of money and can't afford food. (jokes...) anyway, i'm just going to work out. i'm starting by setting small goals (not "i want to lose 30 lbs!") like, for instance, by the time i go home for thanksgiving, i want my family to ask me if i've lost weight. that's all. that's my first goal. my weight has stayed pretty much the same since before- still a road-hugging 164 lbs. not proud of that, obviously, but at least i haven't gained anymore. also, i want to look better for kevin. it makes me feel good when he looks at me and goes "mmmmmm!" and he can't keep his hands off me. i'm really going to try... because what the hell else do i have to do?

active

kevin got me a new game for the wii- called active. it lets you put in all your info and gives you a trainer. i'm doing a 30-day challenge, working out 4-5 days a week. every day the routine is different so you don't get bored. you can also take a fitness survey every day and document other activities. so far, it's been really good- working on getting back to eating well, and i do about a 20-minute workout everyday. that's it for now.