Day 6

Goooood morning...

Yesterday I took the day off from my normal morning routine.  I don't work Tuesdays, and Kevin and I usually go on St. Louis adventures- trying to do all the "St. Louis Things" we can before we move back home.  I knew I was going to have a long day anyway, so I snoozed the alarm when it went off at 5.  We went to the zoo, and probably walked about 2 miles.  Went and had breakfast, then did some various errands which included more walking. 

This morning, I was back at it again.  Rosie and I went the long way around the community.  Around a mile, I think.  I got up extra early so I could come back and do some more work, but I couldn't find any routines online... which led to me just being sucked into the computer.  But, that did lead me somewhere positive.  Found something called "Beyond Diet."  Trying currently to decide whether I want to spend $47 on this program ($47, one time, that's it... I've already learned a lot just from their promo.  I think it may be worth it??) which includes access to their community, meal plans, etc.  It could be really good for me.  I think I want to.  Eeeeeee. 

Gotta shower. <3

Day 4

I have no post for day 3... I decided it would be best for my sanity to take Sundays off of both my fitness routine and my healthier eating.  Sometimes, I just need to have a delicious, bubbly, sugary soda. What can I say?   Anywho, here we go again, Monday morning.  Bought a pair of New Balance running shoes yesterday and some insoles.  Spent $125.  Kevin was not too happy about it.  He knows I needed shoes, and he's fine with it, but we're supposed to be saving money for our trip home next month.  In exchange, I have to sell a few things to make up for that $125.  Also, he told me I better be serious about this.  I'm trying to be.  I took Rosie out this morning, we went a little farther than normal.  Actually went outside Sun Valley Lake.  I don't think we made it a mile, but we're working up to that.  Well, more than that, obviously.  I'm going to start getting up 3 hours before work instead of my normal 2.5 so that I can incorporate some more exercises into my morning routine.  I have enough time to do more now, but I like having a bit of down time before I have to go to work.  Speaking of that... I gotta run.

Day 2

Day 1 went pretty well, except that I had to stop at Taco Bell for Kevin, and while I was there, I broke down and got a Mt. Dew.  The rest of my day was pretty good.  Work went well because I had a lot of energy to start the day...  Had a turkey unwich for lunch and some pasta salad, didn't snack on any cake... got home, didn't have to pig out right away... Had a turkey, spinach, & tomato omelet for dinner.  Had 2 small glasses of wine, a peach, and a piece of cheese.  Didn't do any additional exercise.  Want to change that today, but we'll see what happens.

Day 2 is starting exactly the same.  4am wake up, stretch, walk with Rosie, shower, smoothie, hb egg white, and it's off to work I go.

back at it in 2012.

day 1 of this attempt to get my ass in shape.  i cannot go to my 10 year high school reunion 60+ lbs heavier than when i graduated.  unacceptable.  also, i want to get down to a healthy weight before i get pregnant, because once that happens, i'll never get this weight off.  so, here i go.

woke up at 430a, stretched, took rosie for a short walk just to ease into my first day.  showered, breakfast:
shake- banana, pineapple, blueberries, spinach, greek yogurt, water.
1 hard-boiled egg white (don't like the yolk, gave it to puppy.)
off to work.  hoping to God my willpower holds up and i don't stuff my face with cake and other garbage.
i'll report back tonight with how i did the rest of the day.
pray for mojo.

<3

yep... finally doing this. for realz this time.

My first boot camp class is tomorrow morning. Excited and scared. I have 30 days unlimited, and I think I mapped out on my schedule somewhere between 12 and 15 days that I'm going to go do it. On some of the days when I can't go, I'm going to get my chubby ass down to the fitness room and alternate between cardio and weight machines... maybe get a little rope jumping in there too. Once boot camp is over, I'm going to start the Women's Health C25K, per the suggestion of the lovely Pia. Also, I'm eating more fiber and protein. It's a start. We'll see how far I get with all this.

beyond frustrated...

i really, REALLY want to do something about my body. i signed up for the national body challenge on the discovery channel's website. here's the problem... when you sign up for things like that, they give you a meal plan. "HERE'S YOUR HEALTHY MENU!" it shrieks at me from the top of the page. problem is, the menu consists of a whole bunch of shit that currently resides at the grocery store, and not in my kitchen. how can i do this when everything seems to be working against me? i cannot afford to run out and buy chicken and fish and fresh produce every couple of days... WTF.i have $270 to last me the next 2 and a half weeks. this is not working. fuck.

here we go...

so, i don't really know how many times i have said "i'm serious about this"... but i think last night was a giant wake up call. i'm getting married. in a year, if all works out. which means that in about 6 months, i'm going to need to have a wedding dress. which in turn means that i'm going to need to be the size i want to be for my wedding. i was thinking yesterday that i feel like i've lost a little weight, just due to stress and being too busy on some days to eat. if i can keep up a little momentum, and not do anything stupid (like going shopping for pants and being disappointed in how big i am and then getting depressed and gorging myself) i might be able to do this. i'm trying to get kevin to work with me a little bit... that'll help i think. i also looked into the kettlebell workout thing you told me about. i'm going to need to go to target and pick on up. i'm really excited. i hate that i can't tell anyone. i'm so retarded- i just want to change my relationship status on facebook. lol. then i started thinking last night about all the stuff we have to do... holy crap. i'm really overwhelmed. i want you to know, though, that this isn't going to be a "normal" maid of honor job. i think there will be way less to do. ok, i've gotten completely off track and turned this into crazy bridal blog. losing weight- #1 goal. here i go.