hmm.

back again... i killed the blog and fell off my diet almost immediately. didn't help that portland happened the next week and i ate like... well... like i was on vacation. i want to get back on. i want to, so badly. it's so effin hard though. i really don't have the money to go spend on special food for myself every week... and a lot of times when i do bring food home, i can't exactly write my name on my shit... parents would definitely take offense to that. so it disappears and i'm left with junk. i wish i had money to take a class... something to get in shape. but i don't. i'm super frustrated because i cannot, for the life of me, find a job. no one will hire me only for the summer. it's not worth the training at some place new. because i'm frustrated and stressed, i eat more. it sucks. bad. whatever.